Camera

I have a panasonic lumix TZ3 camera. it has an underwater scene on the options so i thought i can use the camera underwater. So when i was at Lombok few days ago, i became so curious and i tell my friends. We try to wash the camera with water and it start to dim on and off. I ask my friend to stop and she didn't so yeah the camera went off. I didn't know what to do. I was so panic. The camera won't turn on. So i remove the battery and memory card. I use hair dryer to dry it out. If i shake the camera water will spill out of it and water will stream down on the screen (inside the camera). I feel so irresponsible. This is my third time of breaking a camera. First, i lost it (actually someone stole it from my locker). Second, i broke the lens cover. Now, this. I cried, alone. I prayed to god so that the camera can be back to normal and also the waters will dry out. And the water did dry out, no more water spilling out the camera or streaming down the screen when i shake it. Thanks god. I love him so much. But i still have not try to turn it on because i didn't dare to. humph )':

Have you ever?

Have you ever walk along a street an feel that this life is a dream when it's not? Have you ever stand in crowd and feel lonely? Have you ever sit alone in a room and thinking about dying somehow? Have you ever think about how your wedding would be when you know you're not gonna get married anyways? Have you ever imagine that one of your parents will die and imagine how you would cry and how their funeral will be? Have you ever feel that you're such a bad friend even your friends know you're not? Have you ever think of getting in to trouble when you know you would disappoint those who love you and those who you love? Have you ever feel that it is the end of the world just because you get a bad score? Have you ever think just for a second that you might be adopted by your parents? Have you ever think that your parents love your siblings more? Have you ever hate your mom or dad whether you mean it or not? Have you ever love a guy so much but in the end he turn out to be the person you hated most? Well, if you don't, i had ever feel and think that ways.


(It's fun to think about what to right after a "Have you ever". Try it!)

Bad Day

You had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day

Those lyrics of the song 'Bad Day'- Daniel Powter are similar to what I'm feeling. i am apparently having a bad day. It begins in science class. I prepare for a presentation that should have been a group work but since my group mates doesn't really care so i make the presentation. I sent the presentation to each of my group mates' email before the presentation day and they didn't even bother to look at it. They only complain, ask and whine the morning before the presentation. I was pretty much pissed off. After the presentation there's this one classmate whom i hate who come up with a question with a tone like as if he knows everything. i swear i feel like i wanna slap him!

Love

People said that first love is the hardest to forget and i am still not sure that i have ever love someone. Love is surely a big word. By big i don't mean it is long or anything but the meaning of the four letter word is huge. is it a feeling of tender towards our closest people, or the feeling of romantic and sexual desire, what if it is none of it? what if there is actually a whole new definition of love? What is love? How do we know that it is love? People said that it is when you meet someone and feel some sort of sensation. But what if i love someone and i just don't feel any sensation, i feel normal but i know i love him. And what if i feel some sort of sensation but i don't love him. Those possibilities are surely possible. Most people may think that i am not romantic or stuff like that but they are wrong. I am just being realistic.

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

When i jogged this morning, i went pass through this group of old men whom also jogged. as i jogged pas through them i could hear what they were talking about. They were humiliating religions and i was like, what the hell is going on with these men. If they don't believe in certain religions then fine but just shut the fck up. They were saying that the pope and priests in Christian and Protestant religion, fake some actions and pay people so that they will fall when the pope or priests pray for them. What the hell was that? i was furious. I witnessed similar actions to that and i swear it's real. I was cursing them, who don't have faith in god who had sacrifice his son, Jesus Christ and in Jesus Christ who had sacrifice his life for us. Those who humiliate god are cowards! Believing in god is a tough decision, believing something that who had never seen with your own eyes before but those who believe are blessed and those who believe are not cowards because they dare to believe in god, to have faith in god whom they had never seen before. I hate those whom humiliate religions especially in public without thinking or learning what they are doing first.