church boy

He texted me. haha but i don't know how i feel.

Speedy

I used speedy for my internet connection for like years and it's always the same. It had monthly sickness just like humans. I'm pretty disappointed. My mom and dad had threatened the customer service that they would cut it out if the internet is always broken like that. But yeah. It still got it's monthly sickness every once in a while but not that BAD anymore. but still...speedy sucks.

Hasianti Deamita Lumbanraja.

just being random ti. I got so bored tp ga tau mau tulis apa. btw gue lagi chat sama si itu ahahaha the church boy

Soulmate

"Why doesn't long for someone to hold
Who knows how to love you without being told
Somebody tell me why i'm on my own
If there's a soulmate for everyone."

is a piece of lyric from Natasha Beddingfield's song titled soulmate. I had been thinking about these lines over the week. What if my soulmate had gone away. Is there a second soulmate for me?

Life.

I simply hate it when my dad starts to be so annoying. For example, if i was just asking a simple question like, "dad you know why i can't poo?" he'll start arguing and shouting about stuff like, "of course! you had not bla bla bla and so on" dan dengan nada yang sumpah ga enak di denger. I mean i was just asking! Dear god. There's simply no more love and peace at home these days. Mom is out working, when she's home she probably will just pissed me off since she was all tired and emotional. These days there's no day without arguing with my parents. I am not those kind of person who can just remain calm when someone say untrue things about myself. I hate it when my mom starts to say stuff like she knows what it feels like to be me. I am always wrong for her. There's always something wrong with me, every single thing that i do or try to do or say or ANYTHING! I sacrifice my teenage life for her. For making her proud of me. For proving to her that i can do it! I study hard, never submitted anything late, always try to do anything my best, and yet she still says that it's not enough. I've had enough. I hate life these days but I'm fighting that feeling of hatred since i know it's wrong. I simply hate being among my family these days. They're all annoying. I feel lonely.

cuties <333

Chris Pine ♥

Ashton Kutcher ♥

i'm like super bored with everything now. No good websites to visit. Nothing. Social networks thingy like facebook is boring. Games? no thanks. Anybody knows any INTERESTING website?

i'm bored to death. Not knowing what to do. Any suggestions?

things Romeo would miss after taking his life

First and most important, SEX.
Second, being with Juliet. (Romeo, you'll definitely miss every touch of hers)
Third, Having kids. (Yeah, Romeo! Imagine your babies' heads coming out of your lovely wife.)
Fourth, feeling that CHEMISTRY OF LOVE when Juliet is around ( you know, Romeo. That sparkling feeling when you're in love. You're such a lusty lover, how can you not miss that?)
Fifth, being with his friends (drugging, drinking, etc etc )
Sixth, getting OLD and FEEBLE
Seventh, his PARENT'S WEALTH (as we all know his parent sure is VERY rich. why would you take your life when so much is coming for you?)
Eighth, getting the hell out of that small city, verona.
Ninth, seeing the OUTSIDE world (Juliet would love paris like any other girls these days)
Tenth, he would absolutely miss the SWORD REFORMATION. (fyi, we don't use swords anymore, Romeo. We use guns, grenades, and stuff like you had never imagine before. We're cool and you sucks.)
Eleventh, and which is the most most most important of all is that handsome Romeo would absolutely MISS ME! XD (JK guys)

Manchester United

Guys MU is really coming to Indonesia! Can't wait till it. I'll pay how much ever to see them! The problem is, anybody know where i can buy MU tickets?

My Prayer

Jesus Christ
Heal my heart
Save your daughter
She's in pain

Jesus Christ
Heal my soul
Save your daughter
She's in pain

Jesus Christ
Heal my mind
Save your daughter
She's in pain

maintenant c'est tous les sens. vous ne l'avez jamais aimé moi. Vous avez aimé d'elle. Mon ami. C'est drôle comment je pourrais pleurer sur quelqu'un que je viens de rencontrer. Je ne déteste. Je ne suis pas le haïr. Je déteste moi et ma vie. Oh, Jésus, aide-moi je suis dans la douleur.

booreeeeeeeeeed

simply bored. complicatedly bored. whateverly bored.

Law of Attraction

How do you create your desires using the powerful law? There are just a few basic steps.

1. Get very clear on what you want

2. Visualize and raise your vibration about it



3. Allow It

You must be very clear on exactly what your desire is. Focus on it. Give it all your positive energy. Feel good!

A major factor behind this Universal Law is the energy and vibrations of our emotions and feelings. Any thought you may have, when combined with emotion, vibrates out from you to the universe and will attract back what you want.

You can leave all the details to the universe. Let the Universe figure out the method of delivery, when you will receive it, etc. Now all you have to do is Allow It. Sounds easy, right? This can be the most difficult part to do. Be doubt-free. All you need to do is expect it. Act like you already have it. Be grateful.

And always take inspired action. If something feels right, then go ahead and do it. Taking action is an important step.

That is it! You can always be expectant of good things, your desires. Feel good knowing your desire is on its way to you.
Always expect your desires. Expect miracles.

Resources: http://www.law-of-attraction-info.com/

I wanna try this on the church boy but then it's so hard to really be positive and sure of it. I tried so that he will text me last night but he didn't so i guess i just don't have enough faith in this LOA. Anyone have a suggestion?

Sleepy

So sleepy and bored at the same time

Church Boy part II

It was our second last meeting before good friday. Temennya si ganteng (the guy) yang namanya erico manggil ade gue , "eh Reinhard sini aja! kalo malu ajak kakanya aja sekalian". My reaction was like, whts wrong with this guy? He didn't even know me. But it didn't bother me much. I was standing behind my younger brother when si ganteng and his friend starts to tease my brother. I laughed seeing my brother teased. And si ganteng bilang to his friend (Erico), "iya kata lo kan cara pdkt yang paling baik itu kalo ngedeketin adenya." Sumpah gue ga tau mesti ngomong apa jadi gue pergi. I tried not to be gr.

Church Boy part I

I joined a drama club in my church. My mom actually signed me up there. I dislike it at first because i know totally no one beside one of my friend but as the meetings goes on i turned to love the club. The club is not permanently fixed in which i mean that once we performed on good friday then the club is finished. I liked a guy there. I found out earlier that he is already in university. I don't know who he is, what his name is, his university, where he lived, nothing. Nothing at all. I just like lookin at his face. I think he looks like a local actor in Indonesia. Meetings by meetings passed by and i still haven't know who he is. I get some friends but not close ones. It is indeed very fun to make friends. I found out that 'the guy' is pretty close with my younger brother which makes me like 'the guy' even more. I like guys that are close to my brother and i don't know why.

**MIRACLE**

miracle do happens. I decided to bring my Lumix camera to the service center to get it checked (Saturday). The technical guy said that he will contact me when he had done examining the camera. It had been 3 days and no one from the service center had called. I told them to get it a quick check since I'm leaving on Thursday to Jogja. It was Tuesday when they try to contact me but since I'm not home yet so my dad pick up the phone. It was wednesday that my mom told me that someone from the service center called. She said the camera cannot turn on and in order to repair it, some parts have to be replaced and the price is about 1 million 700 thousand rupiah. (Rp.1.700.000,00) My mom and dad keeps on blaming me. I can't repudiate it since they were right. So i went to the service center with my mom to take the camera. My dad thinks that it's better to buy a new camera than fixing it so yea they planned to use my money since i am the one who break it. When i arrived at the service center, the repairman said that he had inserted the new part so i asked him to put the part out again since my dad wants to buy a new camera instead of fixing it. Even though i know that this is all my fault but i still feel very bad that my parents are going to use my money to buy a new camera. So yea, the repairman put the part out and SURPRISINGLY the camera turned on!!!! I was so damn glad! I was like thank god! This is one of the best miracle in my life (agak lebay sih tp tetep aja it's a miracle)