oke sekarang gue ngerti

he told me about his ex

and how she's not coping with the fact

that they're not together anymore

katanya his ex jadi lifeless (kinda crazy gitu ga niat sekolah and she does freaky nonsense stuff)

and he feels sorry for her ):

I feel sorry for her too ):

aku ngalah deh

I don't want him anymore (I'll try not to)

I'm a girl

and I can feel what she feels

Sorry for you, girl

even though gue ga kenal sama lo and you wouldn't read my blog anyway

kenapa ya gue jadi dejavu ke masa gue sama willy

yang abis putus dia deket sama orang lain

uda gitu i want him back

gue ngerecokin mereka

willy comes back to me

jangan2 karma

astaga tuhan jangan sampe deh

aku emang egois waktu itu

and I feel sorry for that

what ever happens happens deh

aku uda pasrah aja

aku sayang sama kamu buff

too early i know

makanya mungkin aja kan aku tiba2 ga suka lagi sama kamu

semoga aja gitu

let's move on with our life

(for me I'll try to move on)

What's left is regret

and I don't even know what am I regretting

Damn why do you have to look so good ):

why do you have to be the guy i love

why you?

why do I always love the wrong guy?

you said you're not in love with someone else

but I can feel it

and I know now you do too

he wrote >>

Perasaan lama emang susah di lupakan. Gua pingin banget bisa kaya dlu lagi. :(

in his facebook

and yesterday he visited his old school. I think his ex is there ):

daaaaaammmmmmmmmnnnnnnnnnnnnnn kenapa harus suka sama lo sih

out of all boys in binus in jakarta in the world in the whole universe

WHY YOU?

every time I see a picture of him

my heart twitch

every time I look at him

I couldn't bare to not smile

every time you make jokes

I could not stand to not laugh

every time your skin touches mine

all I can think about is kissing your lips

does it have to end before it really begin?

does this have to be another heartbreak?

I'm just a teenage girl who wanna love and be loved ):

God help me please...I need you

kangen banget buff waktu kamu perhatian fast-reacting

banget padahal aku cuman becanda ;p

pas aku bilang aku sakit juga kamu worried

banget yang ade aku cacar juga

(yang kamu suruh aku kabur lol)

sayang conversationnya ga ke save ):

kangen banget kalo mau udahan

telfonan there was that gap

and you said you love me

I was blushing loh

and I said I love you too

with a giggle after that

bet you think of me as a freak

:giggle:

kalo mau tidur abis chat ato bbm ato sms juga

biasanya love you gitu ya hehe sekarang engga

sekarang paling kamu bilang sweet dream

aku bersyukur aja deh :)

at least I'm still talking to you

and nobody owns you yet

I couldn't control myself when you're around

You are like my own brand of drugs

and now I'm getting too addicted

mungkin kamu mikir aku berlebihan

coz I think I am :P

but I do love you

some of my friends said

kamu mungkin bukan yang terbaik buat aku

but I aim not the best

I aim for you, my love

they said you'll hurt me

tapi aku percaya kamu ga kea gitu buff

inget MaWar ga buff?

kamu yang buat loh

hehe

couldn't stop blushing kalo inget masa2 itu

I hope kamu cuman lagi empet sama your problems ya

I miss my old buffy yang selalu senyum :)

selalu ngejoke

selalu sweet ♥

I'll wait for you

buff i miss ya like crap. I wish I could tell you that.

I love you for real. Need you more than I need the air

i still wanna be your piglet buff

i want new sidekick LX with 3G :'(

retarded Kristen Stewart is cuddling w/ Robert Pattison instead of Taylor -___- you dummy. oh well I guess that means Taylor is mine! ♥

DAMN YOU TAYLOR WHY SO HOT ♥

Taylor in suit ♥ as hot as ever

Taylor you're my only distraction from my real life love ♥

pieces of lyrics from another heart call by the all-american rejects ♥ (so me)

Do you remember when we didn't care
We were just two kids that took the moment when it was there

Yeah I remember when we stole the night
We'd lie awake but dreaming till the sun would wash the sky

I'll never ask for anyone but you
But I know all that you want is to figure it out
And god knows I do too
What can I do?
Say it's true
I'll never ask for anyone but you

seriously?! is he that effing important to you?! hadn't you hurt your daughter enough?! I bet you would trade your life for them! damn just watch me and see what I can do. Listen to me, I've shed enough tears. One day I'll walk away from the so called home with pride and dignity. I need not your money keep it and rot in hell and your family will regret ever hurting me so bad!

10418.) It honestly scares me how much i like you. I have no self control when i’m around you, and all i can think of is being with you. (http://blogsecret.tumblr.com >>>via http://hasiantideamita.tumblr.com

the pink large font is so me ):

Wish that I could cry

fall upon my knees

find a way to lie (superman by Five for Fighting)

about the love I'll never get

my heart is screaming

and I am sniffing

my heart skipped a beat

every time you talk to me

every time i look at your eyes

every time your skin touches mine

damn I sounded so pathetically in love

CAUSE YES I AM

and I'm not gonna act

.....I wish I don't need to

Okay maybe I'm not surviving...

my hand itches so bad

by the fact that I don't wanna call you first

I need to talk to you

I love you

and I hope you know how I feel

I hope you could just read my mind

and know what I'm feeling

Or simply read my blog

and feel what i write

damn ):

why is love so complicated?

aren't we suppose to simply love one another?

they said love bring us happiness

they said love bring us no pain

lies lies lies

don't believe what people are saying

not until you experience it yourself

what should i do? ))):::

my friends are pursuing me to talk to you

and i know it's the rightest thing to do

but I'm too afraid

to know the truth

I couldn't bare losing you

no...

not now ):

Okay I am surviving

but I couldn't stand to stop checking out his PMs and his facebook

today his PM is ----> "aku pusing!! :S yang mana ya??"

damn! see?! he's in love with another girl

tata is right

he's in the middle of his own dilemma

I feel like letting go

but I'm unsure

could I let go?

Last night he replied my bbm

but its late and im sleepy

so yeah i said im going to bed

he said "night (: sweet dream (: "

damn why bother saying sweet dream if you're ditching me off your life ):

you're cutting me even deeper

oh yeah...we didn't chat much yesterday

i thought he care no more

but he 'revealed' that his cousin is staying at his house and they're busy playing

damn damn damn

I'm so lost :S

and nobody can help me but myself

I still love him

I really do ):

God help me ): I'm not gonna survive without you ):

i've reached the point where I'm like.... "damn i care no more. let it be"

one day, you'll regret this day...or maybe i will

I'm not sure how I would feel when I meet you at school

nor the next few days

damn i thought i can't live without you even for a second

but hey boy i'm surviving now

I know I love you

and you know I do

It's something that I can't change

but time will

I'm not gonna say "I'm happy if you are even though that means that i gotta lose you"

cause i know I wont

and I'm not gonna act

jealousy would still burn me inside

and I wont got you to cool it down no more

tears would still flow on my cheeks

like the rain flow on my window

maybe i would let you know

maybe i would not

maybe i would still be unsure

maybe i would find someone else

and cry on his shoulder

or maybe i could simply stop loving and simply love my friends

and again...let the time answer

I want you

kiss my lips

touch my skin again

hug me tight

and never let me go

Don't let the teardrops flow on my face

Like the raindrops that flow on my fence

Couldn't imagine a life without you buff

please don't go

please love me still

damn i feel you changing and i know its not just me

what has come to you?

is it another girl?

is it a mistake ive done?

where are the words that you used to say?

you left way too many unanswered questions and its killing me

he used to call me beb and know he simply call me with my name

he used to say he love me after every night call or on our night wishes

I used to be his piglet and he used to be my buffy

couldn't survive a life without you ): could not imagine a life without you ):

i want you to know this and yet i fear of rejection

i wanna say the word 'i love you' one more time

but i fear that it would hurt me more

I fear to ask how you feel

I fear to face the truth

coz sometimes truth do me no good

i know that i need to know the truth

some day, some time , but not today....

will this be another heartbreak? I hope not. I love you buff ):

Buffy <3

I love him lol ;)

help
):

idk what to do

okay i like him

earthquake!

there's like this severe earthquake today in Indonesia AND IT WAS AWWEEESOOOMEEE XD

hell i survived XD

I;m not really in the mood to share my happiness though so i might just tell ya all later

anyways i think i might like someone...