Stuck at home :S can't believe this): semoga uda gapapa2 biar besok bisa masuk hihi :D i miss school like so much!! ((: kinda hate it though....since wednesday evening dia uda jarang banget nyariin gue, not that he really did...walaupun only for asking homeworks or whatever tapi tetep aja ): eh wait....wednesday evening itu kemaren kan ya? so yeah he didn't look for me yesterday. uda gitu his bbm status are referring to his closeness with that girl. well not really sih tapi ya gitu deh kea teasing2. hmmm kalo dibilang jealous engga juga sih tapi kalo di bilang engga jealous ya jealous -____-" uda gitu malemnya ada masalah sama bokap. ngeselin abis so i changed my status jadi "i hate you" itu buat bokap sih but not that i really hate him. uda gitu dia langsung manggil gue gitu nanya lagi ngapain. terus kata temennya dia nanya gitu status gue buat siapa. Jujur, itu emang buat bokap kok tapi emang gue juga lagi feeling hopeless w/ him. There's no way I could win his heart. be doomed mar face that fact. yauda gitu deh intinya.uda gitu dia nanya2 tapi gue juga lupa dia nanya apaan. i was too sick last night. Intinya he was acting like he cared -_- man please cut it off. it'll hurt me deeper. it'll do me no good. please don't act like you care. I appreciate it sih tapi ya...hmph :S tau aaahhh))))))): mau sekolah aja kea kata si anti.

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wow....im shock...not shock....surprised?

mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.......

he said I'm like a 'little kid'

kid is pretty small

kid with little infront....

IS SO FREAKING SMALL):

wow....

yeah his point is that im 'childish'

said I gotta change that

then said again it's only a suggestion

you dumbass I would do anything for ya

you know what he said again?

he said..."I'm sure you'll change. There'll be many guys that likes you" wtf man i want YOU not OTHER guys )):

"I don't ever wanna let go

I hope that you see, yeah

That there's a part of you that's left inside of me

Yesterday just took me hostage

Yesteday locked me away from truth

And now tomorrow's here without you

I know it's hard i've tried

I could never say goodbye"

Believe- the All-american rejects

I don't fear death but I do fear doomsday

ga tau kenapa but I'm always too happy when I talked to him. can't stand to not smile ;) oh boy i still love you so

my mom liked him. and yes it's so important. for so long....she never ever ever ever like anyone I liked before and for once she does! wow...i can't believe this. too bad mom he's not into me ):

went to church this morning

and yeah he made it

he woke up lol

i was kinda surprise

Can't say I'm happy

but I am glad

idk how to describe how I feel right now

this is random but..

#pengakuan gue takut kalo buka profilenya ): it's like i don't wanna know the truth

okay...ummmm....how should i say this? It's sunday. time to go to the church and I'm going with him... yeah finally...for real -___-

should I be happy? but i'm not....really....weird huh?

huff): god bless me

tiba2 kangen banget masa2 dulu pake aku-kamu. even if it's not for real. kangen banget bisa deket ngomongin apa aja yang gue mau share. ngomongin apa aja yang super random without even thinking you would feel wrong about me. kangen ketawa2 kea orang gila di kelas cuman gara2 lo. kangen semuanya. if i got a time machine, i would go back to that day all of this started. to the best days of my life. I know I sound like im bullshitting. huff ): it's hard to smile these days. kangen bisa ketawa2 dikelas but now I got no reason to laugh. cause you're not there to make me laugh. aaahhh wake up girl ! okay back to reality...I'll never get over you but I know you can never be mine. so yeah...im done hoping...I'll still like you until who knows when. the only thing I want right now is to be your friend like I used to be. To be the one for you to share your happiness and sadness with.

1) penyesalan itu emang dateng belakangan.

idk what i said or did that makes it like this

but yeah maybe i did sth wrong..sth so wrong

had a phone call with one of my friends last night

and yeah...he pretty much 'opened' my eyes and fixed my mind

maybe it's me...

for once, I simply don't know

2) ga nyambung sih

tapi sumpah orang yang i can lie to is the stupidest person living on earth

and orang yang ga bisa ngebohongin gue is the second stupidest person living on earth

1) I can't lie. can't stand it. I suck at lying. You'll know when I'm lying

2) I can't see which is true and which is not. I simply believe everyone. I wanna respect them but I think I did that the wrong way...

solution?? none.

idk how to 'change' that part of me

But, hey I'm just a kid

I grew up around people older that me

I grew up a kid

3) I hate saturdays. My substitute teacher for german SUCKS. she gave 2 chapters for our hw. damn its german miss.

Life's not so good lately. Even friday wasn't my day. lame lame lame...

too many untold stories. too lazy to tell everything. the story is too predictable. He kept on pulling me and i got pulled. I fell for him again. We were so close 48 hours ago and now he's like a stranger to me. Can you see the pattern? I fall for him. We grew close. He push me away. I decide to get over him. I start to move on. He come back. I fall for him again. We grew close again. He push me away again. I'm so sick of this :S

you were so happy when i called you buffy again ): why? why pushing me away and pulling me back when I start to move on? you know i’d fall for you again ): i hate you

buffy looks so darn cute today ); couldn't miss him more

kiss me like you never kiss, hold me like you never gonna let me go, love me like I love you

what?! dia bilang my friend cantik and he likes her -_____________-

you know what?!

I hope you'll die and rot in hell. bye!