F-you BUDDY

Hey so I'm back to blogging. twitter aint so private. I need privacy....so yeah I'm in a very bad mood. feeling mixed up. I simply hate him for everything. Gah i wish i had never knew him. I feel like shouting, "HEY I GOT A FEELING TO YA KNOW" in front of his face!! no wonder his ex is so freaking depressed! I'm sorry boy i know she's 'haunting' you with all those memories BUT YOU DESERVE IT. I would feel the same if i were her. You are undecided and immature. HA! eat that buddy. If you said I'm childish then you are SUPER MEGA childish! You thought you know everything about love and life. Oh well, you thought wrong. There's so much more to learn. For so long, you live in that comfort zone that your parents created for ya. You just hadn't realise yet...I told you all my tales, maybe you think I'm insane or CHILDISH but wait till you feel what I felt. It's not easy to be me. To be born unwanted by your dad's family. To grow up unwanted. I'm no expert about love nor an expert about life. But I do know that I can't play with someone's feeling. Love is something really strong. Once you break it, it'll never fix back...there'll be some wound left uncured. And I do know that I have to THINK BEFORE DOING OR SAYING anything. Cause what I say and do might hurt others. I know how to keep someone's feeling even when he/she is so damn annoying. I HATE it when you were mad at me for no reason. Hey boy if you're on a bad mood then don't get mad at others that knows nothing. SEE?! Who's CHILDISH now? People said love and hate is 'near'. It indeed is...one sec you own my heart and now I'm stealing it back. shitting you with all this shits. I'm sorry to ever think that I can be a part of your life forever, for ever DISTURBING your PEACEFUL LIFE. I take back all my words. We were just fooling around didn't we? I won't regret. No. Not this time. Bye boy. One message for you: "F-you, buddy!"

pengen nangis baca conversation yang dulu. fak I CAN DO IT

when you realize that I am gone, it'll be too late to pull me back

thanks for ever being a part of my life (:

thanks for letting me in to your heart for once even if it's only for a while

thanks for letting me in to your life and share you pains with me

I'm flattered

Deep inside, I still love you for a bit but it's not strong enough for me to still love you like I used to and to stand the pain

makasih karena lo selalu lari ke gue

thanks for pulling me as close as you want when you need me

and throw me away as far as you can when you don't

You want me to be mature right?

Now I am (:

I'm too mature for you to fool

I'm too mature to love a fool

If you want it goes like this

then let it be

I would still be writing and posting about you

but not like how I used to

after this post, it would be about how I'm moving on

not to any other guy..

the suck just like you (:

too bad huh?

I'm moving on.

Keep my words.

kesel banget sumpah. fak fak fak. baik cuman kalo ada butuhnya doang! fine. liatin aja. ): bbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaabbbbbbbbbbbbbbbb***************

this time i really am moving on. no lies. no turning back. im sick of it. bye.

you're there and yet you're not

you want it and yet you don't

tired of your inconsistency

fed up of you pulling and pushing me away

jaded with you falling for her all over again

I've been thinking for days...

should i get over this?

should i move on and stop hoping?

Keep on telling myself that i'll be better off without you

that i'll be just fine

that I'll learn how to live without you

to stop missing you too much

I am doubtful

and yet I'm eager to do so

For once, I regret ever falling for you

go ahead and mess my life cause only the soul is mine

kemaren ada yang keceplosan ngomong aku nih yeee ♥ hhh kangen ga sih pake aku kamu )): aaah bete

KANGEN WOOIII ): pengen nangis liat comment2 yang dulu. sms2 yang dulu ): kapan mau menuhin inbox gue lagi? aaaahhh gue jadi ngerasa kea si anti zzzzzzz -.- senasib kek yang bagus2 ini mah yang jelek yang senasib aaaaaaah sebel sebel sebel!! tapi bedanya i'd rather be your friend sih. I still wanna be the one you'd run to when you're down. I still wanna be the place where you store all your secrets. I still wanna be there next to you when you need someone to calm you down. I still wanna be your friend. If I couldn't be the one you love then at least let me to always be there for ya...being your friend is more than i can ever wish

Night after night
I hear myself sayin'
Why can't this feeling just fade away?
There's no one like you ...
You speak to my heart...

54 minutes of an evening call. God i miss you :')

I MISS HOW WE USED TO EXCHANGE DISPLAY NAMES AND DISPLAY PICTURES ))):

145th post <3

i miss you bad. I miss how you would be so excited when i call you *****. I miss how you would make up cute names for us. I miss how you would say you love me and you miss me bad. i miss how you used to hold me tight. I miss how you would tell me all you secrets and i'd be the one you would run to whenever you're down. i miss how we would talk about random things. I miss how you used to smile wide whenever we passed by at school. I miss how you would hold my hands. I miss every single thing we used to do ):

I'm still obsessed with Fabregas ♥♥
he's too cute to be true! LOL
and I'm still obsessed with Chris Pine!!! AWWW SO CUTE SO HOT LOVE LOVE LOVE ♥

addition to my obsession:

THE BLUE BLOOD SERIES!! :D :D

one of the BEST novel series ever published! salute to melissa de la cruz :D
buy it and you'll never regret! a peek to New York's high-glass glamorous life style with unexpected wild young love stories! :D a novel any teenagers would love ♥