Regrets.

I will not say that i got no regret at all. I did, sometimes. But a fact that i will always remember is that my parents especially my mom had always tell me that i am not suppose to regret but thank god that it hadn't got worse. Mom often said that there are people that had gone through worst condition than us and i know that it's true. It's hard because there's just this reflect in our mind which will automatically set to regret what had happened (or sort of like that). But i did tried. For example, my mom do not allow me to go out till 12 am then i thank god that she still let me out.

Reasons why my parents doesn't like him~

I'm not exactly sure what's the reason why my parents doesn't really like him at first. But i think i know why. First, my mom has this hobby of analyzing people and mom said that he's not that good of a person. Second, my dad is very very very very very sure that he just don't worth it. My dad said i should've find someone more than that. Third, after i broke up i had this conflict with 'him' which he turned out to be very mad at me and said rude stuff. Unfortunately, mom had this hobby of sneaking to read my messages and she did read the messages from him. Mom is very very mad at those rude messages and start to dislike him. Plus my mom told my dad. My dad said ''told ya" and i run out of words.

I had said a dozen times to him that i can't date him (specifically him) but he just don't get it. He thought my parents don't allow me to have a boyfriend (which is not true).

3:28 PM

owkay. So the continuation of my "love story" is that i sort of like realize that maybe being with 'him' (again) is not the best for all of us. The reasons are that first of all my mom and dad would kill me if i start to date him again cause they don't like him. (i'll discuss why in my next post) Secondly, (not that i doubt is love or anything) but i think that he just don't love me that much because for me love is not from the hugs and kisses. Thirdly is that he had actually found someone else. Fourthly is that maybe i just can't understand him that much anymore. Fifth, i'm not looking for a boyfriend. Sixth, he want us to HTS-an you know like you had no status but you act like you're dating because my mom would again kill me because she said girls like that will be seen as a cheapy girl. (i don't even know wether the word "cheapy" exist.) So decided that may be we should not date anymore. He did ask wether it's okay if he's dating other girl (i-know-who hahaha) and i said yes. How mean can i be by not letting him to date anyone when i know i could not date him anymore (right?). He asked wether i'll be jealous or not. Oh hell how could i even know. I guess i'll just let it flow. If i will feel jealous later on i think i'll just cover my eyes and pretend not to hear. In other words i just don't want to know anything anymore about his love life but it doesn't mean that we can't be friends anymore.

Headaches

I had no idea why but now every time i use the computer for more that an hour or so i get this bad headaches and it sucks.

Holiday sucks!

Exam is finally over and it's come the holiday. Won't i suppose to be very glad? YEAH but I'm not really that excited. Holiday is super boring since my family had no plan for vacations. Plus another sucks thing is I'm ill. I cough once every few minutes just like old grannies. The worst part is i had no more new novels which means i got nothing to read which means it's so boring. Ah i hope i can go somewhere or at least buy new novels