emptiness. Yeap that is the one word that could describe how i feel right now. Idk wht life is these days. I got nothing to do. I just don't know.....im reading new moon AGAIN lol im running out of novel so i reread every novel i have

i know i had not been posting anything lately. I just don't feel like it. There's too much going on inside me and it's eating me. I can't find the timing and the person i can talk to. Not that they are not good enough or anything, it's just that I'm just afraid of people might think of me. I have a very different perspective of live, i must say and I'm afraid that not everyone are very open-minded to that. I'm tired of pretending. Pretending to enjoy this life. I respect every single minute of my life. I don't even know why I am posting this post or what is the point of this post. I just need to write. To express myself. School had been so sucks. I always want to be in the top as everybody knows but I'm not this year. I tried so hard. I had massive increasement but since i didn't do very well last term, my GPA is not high enough to beat every other smarties. whteves. I'll post sth again later on.

longing for last christmas

So basically, this book is the prequel of the private series by kate brian. Private series are awesome and fun. You'll never get bored reading it. Unfortunately, it's really hard to get this book in Jakarta. My mom tried to look for the book in Singapore a few days ago and she can't find it there. Anybody know where to buy this book? Please tell me if you do cause i'm sooo longing for this book.

I'm going to Bandung with my friends next month (early june) and I'm so damn excited!! i think it'll rock. actually, i'm simply bored to stay at home and do nothing at all. My aunt from Manado is coming and i feel guilty for going with my friends but it'll regret it if i decide not to come. Anyway i think she's staying for a long time so i guess it's fine. I just miss her kids so damn much. They are both cute little babies.

it's kind of hard to share stuff here since it's not private anymore.

mom

I don't even know why i shout at her. I hate her for being so rude to me over silly stuff. it's been days she's like that. i don't even want to think about the rude things she said and did.

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