My Quandary

I had always want to be a doctor. As everybody has known. it was quite a long story how i came up to that point. My father's family is like soooo old-fashioned (I'd rather call it ancient, though), they still believe that boys are lot way better than girls. lame isn't it? Well, for me it is. So, one day my mom told me that i have to prove that i girl can be as good as a boy or even way better and that a daughter of hers can succeed. It really motivates me to be more that others. to work harder than others. i wanted to be different , to be on the top of the class. But anotherr part of me (my lazy part) is too lazy to do so and wanting to enjoy my teenage life just like other which caused me problems. I thought that being a doctor is so freaking cool. Like you got all this respect even in hard times like the World War 2. I wanted to be a doctor also because my mom once said to be that she'll be happy if i can be one so i want her to be happy. It's also cool to examine bodies even dead ones (to me). But right now I'm in my own quandary between being a doctor and not. Being a doctor means i have a long journey of school and they said it's hard and for the short term i can't be as free as other teenagers are because i got to take stuff seriously. Being a doctor means i could change the world. At least a little. Another side of me just want to take a peaceful degree and live in a village peacefully but another side of me wanted to be more than that. Now that my parents are leaving the choices to me. I'm damn confuse. And i don't have much time to decide.