finally...

So hmm it happened yesterday. we talked and FINALLY he start to act a little nicer. he asked me what do i want. Honestly i don't know what i want. Anyway he said i broke his heart into pieces okay that's is so obviously but it just hurts that he actually said it to me. Nancep gitu loh. Like a knife is stab your heart and suddenly you can't breath (agk lebay sih). So okay i think about what he asked. About what i really want. To be honest, the egoist part of me really really really really really want him not to be with his almost new girlfriend but another part of me wanted to just let go. Well but if that is so that maybe we just can't meet. Not that i am too arrogant to meet him or anything but who could stand see their ex with another person. Well anyone but not me. But it's really hard to talk to him to tell him. He just wouldn't listen. He don't believe me. Yea so i think i'm giving my blog url and maybe he would believe. You see now i'm like humpty dumpy who fell and the knights can't put me together again. It feels weird now to write on the blog that i know he will read it but i'll try as hard as possible to tell the whole lot truth. It feels weird because my blog used to be private and i don't think anyone i know had ever open my blog cause they didn't even know i had one because i did not tell them. Well at least until now. I forgot to add that maybe i had something in mind. About what i want. But it's so weird that i ought not to tell. Hahaha it's stupid. I don't know how he will react after reading this blog and also what will happen but i hope it's not something bad.