First Child's problems

a fight? not really. Disappointed? Sure my mom is very disappointed. I guess so. You know it's hard to be the first child. First of all, i got to be an example for my little brother. Second, i got blamed for my brother's mistake though it got nothing to with me at all. Third, I'm like their (mom and dad's) hope to make them proud and prove that their child can be a someone. Another problem is that because unfortunately my dad's family is sooooo old-fashioned and they still think that girl is like so much nothing and i gotta prove that a girl can also do something great. It's hard but I'm determined to prove it cause i think those thinking really sucks. But at the same time my teenage personality is too lazy to be very diligent. But i tried. Maybe my mom is somehow right because i think that i won't be able to prove what i wanted to prove if I'm still like this. I really want to change but it's hard. It's bad habit and hard to change.