church boy

He texted me. haha but i don't know how i feel.

Speedy

I used speedy for my internet connection for like years and it's always the same. It had monthly sickness just like humans. I'm pretty disappointed. My mom and dad had threatened the customer service that they would cut it out if the internet is always broken like that. But yeah. It still got it's monthly sickness every once in a while but not that BAD anymore. but still...speedy sucks.

Hasianti Deamita Lumbanraja.

just being random ti. I got so bored tp ga tau mau tulis apa. btw gue lagi chat sama si itu ahahaha the church boy

Soulmate

"Why doesn't long for someone to hold
Who knows how to love you without being told
Somebody tell me why i'm on my own
If there's a soulmate for everyone."

is a piece of lyric from Natasha Beddingfield's song titled soulmate. I had been thinking about these lines over the week. What if my soulmate had gone away. Is there a second soulmate for me?

Life.

I simply hate it when my dad starts to be so annoying. For example, if i was just asking a simple question like, "dad you know why i can't poo?" he'll start arguing and shouting about stuff like, "of course! you had not bla bla bla and so on" dan dengan nada yang sumpah ga enak di denger. I mean i was just asking! Dear god. There's simply no more love and peace at home these days. Mom is out working, when she's home she probably will just pissed me off since she was all tired and emotional. These days there's no day without arguing with my parents. I am not those kind of person who can just remain calm when someone say untrue things about myself. I hate it when my mom starts to say stuff like she knows what it feels like to be me. I am always wrong for her. There's always something wrong with me, every single thing that i do or try to do or say or ANYTHING! I sacrifice my teenage life for her. For making her proud of me. For proving to her that i can do it! I study hard, never submitted anything late, always try to do anything my best, and yet she still says that it's not enough. I've had enough. I hate life these days but I'm fighting that feeling of hatred since i know it's wrong. I simply hate being among my family these days. They're all annoying. I feel lonely.

cuties <333

Chris Pine ♥

Ashton Kutcher ♥

i'm like super bored with everything now. No good websites to visit. Nothing. Social networks thingy like facebook is boring. Games? no thanks. Anybody knows any INTERESTING website?