Retreat

So on Saturday 10th January and Sunday 11th January 2009 i went to join a charismatic retreat which was held in Puri Asih, Gadog. The place is somewhere near Puncak or in Puncak I'm not really sure. I joined the retreat with 1 of my friend and with my aunt's ex and his friends (he's pretty close with my mom and i assume him as my uncle. he's very nice). I actually thought that the retreat will be like those boring retreat like usual. I was also hoping that there are a lot of teenagers my age there. I arrived at Puri Asih at around 9 am in which the event had started. At first, i was pretty shock because they sang a lot and they were clapping hands and stuff in which I'm really really not used to. After that there was a lady. Her name is Ms. Edith. She give some speech and i was starting to feel sleepy. It was very boring. But when it comes to session 2/3 (i forgot) we start singing and i like the song so i sang the song with full of my heart. At first, Ms. Edith sang with Indonesian Language but suddenly she use the spirit language. And suddenly people start to faint! i was so shocked! I had never seen stuff like that ever! Some people shouted too, but mostly the fainted. I was so afraid. And there was another nice lady who prayed for me. She said some prayer and suddenly she talk with the spirit language. Suddenly i was shaking and i feel so sad. I start to cry. The lady asked me why i cried. I said i don't know because i don't know. I just cried. She said that the holy spirit touches my heart (literally). I was so amazed. She asked if i had any problems or hidden feelings. And by that time i realized how much i've missed my beloved cousin whom was also my very best friend. Unfortunately, he died few years ago. I was really really sad when he died and i missed him so much. But after i was prayed by the lady i was feeling better. I don't feel as sad as i was before joining the retreat. She said those hidden feelings like disappointment, sadness, hatred, etc are called "Luka Batin" in Indonesian Language. I'm not sure what it is in English but if i do know i will soon post another post. That night my friend and i share some stories with my aunt's ex's friend. He sure gives us a lot of good informations in which maybe i can't learn anywhere else. What is really great from the retreat is that i make me understand more about my god and my religion. I learned that masturbation is a sin. Also that hurting our physical body such us smocking, tattooing and stuff like that is also a sin. I learned that even having bad thoughts about our parents are wrong and is a sin. My Uncle's Friend also share his experience in using dark magic and the effect after that. It was a pretty long and spooky story though. I do learned a lot more stuff. But at last i concluded some points for my own self. Those points are that the first and most important thing is that God is really great, other than that is that i better act good NOWrather than later when it's too late and i had so many sins, i also learned to be more patient especially to my parents, and a lot more. I think people should join the retreat if they're interested in it. I'm not really good at telling stories. But believe me it was greater that what i had told.